Friday, October 31, 2003
:: Brr.. Holidays? ::
T.G.I.F urh~
and its rainin'.. oooh, Love it,love it.
haf not been updatin' haf i?
i'm either too lazy or too hungry.
or probably, nothing much to write..
coz it is true. not much been happenin' anyway.
Just that my results were shockingly-good.
i was surpised, dumbfounded, mystified, baffled, perplexed
everything.. all that.
1st position in class.
yes. thats a weird understatement for me huh.
but hey, i deserve it.
i noe i do.
but whatever...
its not really easy for me to kinda lower my self-esteem for others.
i don wanna be posed as an arrogant-bitch now do i.
well, definitely i ain't a BIMBO.
but hey, haha.. BIMBO are suppose to be beautiful.
im not. haha
ok. let's not make anything an issue here.
ok, honestly.. i hate it when people start praising me.
coz erh.. i hate it.
not trynna be modest or anything, but i hate it
but tho'.. sometimes.. DUHH~
i'll go blushin' and all.. but don get my hopes up for next year.
it gonna be so, so much tuffer.
lalalalalalalala.. whatever.
enough of school.
Well, im not sure of my plan during the hols.
probably, lotsa sleeping and chilling @ home.
WOw, been a LONG time since i last did that..
ok, im getting ready to break my fast
dah kan?
ok. i olso haf no more shits to 'testify'.
posted @ 6:29 PM
Monday, October 27, 2003
eh.. raining lah dear...
whooo.. :D
kekekeke.. im so happy~
posted @ 4:59 PM
:: Fasting Day lah dear... ::
wow, it only the first day hurh..
and another speciality 'bout this day..
is coz i got ALL my results.. (whatever)
Outcome: overall, im quite pleased ah...
BUT.. there's always gotta be a 'BUT' for me..
maths as usual.. fail urh.. by 6 mark.
wow-urgh.. im wreck'd just coz of maths..
reeli.. JUST COZ OF MATHS..
next year, MUST get a tuition..
MUST.. it a MUST..
urgh~ no cursin' during puasa ley..
ok, not letting that anger me or anytink,
quite happy, happy with the rest of my result.. heh
enuff' of that..
another 3 and a half hour till buka..
i still feelin' fine though.. maybe coz its like usual to me everyday..
i mean everyday, after school oso i don eat,
at nite then eat..
so, it typical lah..
well, well.. i was alone in class today..
coz apparently my two 'guards' are absent from school
nah, it fine by me~
coz the day was preeeety cool, watch'd 'sister act' during EL
haha, yep yep yep.. (,")
oklah.. tynna make myself useful in this house..
gots to do this, gots to do that..
then summore, probably tonite must 'tarawih'..
eh? must i go erh? maybee..
ok, happy fasting.......
No cursing
No gossiping
No lying
No Eating (duh)
No .. No.. No.. and on and on..
"Resist the temptation..."
posted @ 4:40 PM
Saturday, October 25, 2003
:: this another 25.10.03 Post ::
oh.. morning ready
im awake
yes
SO, what been happening since i last blog'd urh..
haha.. apparently, just sleeping..
but then when i woke up, urgh..
my whole body was sore and lethargic..
today, don't think im having plans..
actually, wan ajak teman him go sumwherre..
but sorie mahn... im reeeelli poop'd..
maybe next time aiite
Stuffs to do today:
1. Develop film
2. Urgh, memorise sumfink
3. clean up my room.. urgh~
4. cook for my brotha.. urgh~
5. call "him" up... urgh~
urgh, today is so urgh-ing..
ah, forget it.. urgh, urgh.. (haha.. like what !)
"urgh !"
posted @ 3:02 PM
:: Black.Eyed.Peas ::
oh... i love 'em..
nah, actually just adoreee Fergie..
the only lady ..
ain't she like the new gwen stefani
but more to the hip hop based ah
love her style.. and the way she exudes confidence..
urrrrr... haha.. i am straight OK.. :P
wow.. can't believe i'm writing "a" post just for this
haha.. actualli.. still in the nite of the 24th..
cant sleep urh.~
so, let sing
Shut up, just shut up, shut up.
shut up, just shut up, shut up.
shut up, just shut, shut up....
We try to take it slow
But we're still losin control
And we try to make it work
But it still isn't the worst
And I'm craaazzzy
For tryin to be your laaadddy
I think I'm goin crazy
haha k k..
im going..
coz i knoe i can write more shits in herre..
refrain my dear hanna..
" And I'm craaazzzy For tryin to be your laaadddy I think I'm goin crazy "
posted @ 2:23 AM
Friday, October 24, 2003
:: "BItch-ParTyinG" 24.10.03 ::
ehk, yess.. we had a beach party today
FINALLY, the day has come to celebrate yana bday
but apparently, two of "US" had already so-called gone togther
i'm kinda pissed.. ergh.. i mean.. tak ajak seyyy
haha.. kayyy..
Wow.. today was like some kind of fun-marathon for me
like no rest mahn hanna.. from one thing to another
swimming to roller blading to swimming back to.......
my feet was screaming "Yoouucchh!~"
eheks.. bday girl jatuh seyy narri..
nak so-called "reminisce" her roller-blading skills.. with MY help :D
haha, she fell.. and brot me down wit' her.. haha
my arse still feeling sore..
but takpe.. if she falls, i fall..
chey.. hehh.. :P
but thank-god, she noes the tricks to cover up embarrassment
Whoa.. today was really happenin' mahn..
all the foooods.. the presents... the waterr...
and yeah, the beach was awrite actualli..
thats a new..
relli..
okay.. im poop'd..
went i reach'd home.. terus.. "BOMP" on the bed
ekk.. hair still "kusot".. gross !
".. humpty & dumpty fell drop down on their arse- sucha comical sight.."
posted @ 10:57 PM
Thursday, October 23, 2003
:: Simplicity is Beautiful ::
okay, so, obviously i've changed my blogskin
i was getting tired of using webshell for the pictures..
and coz my old skin needs picture, i've gota haf new one
and yeaah.. took a VERY simple one
BUT no archives mahn.. damn.
just black and grey.. i love black u noe..
like i say, simplicity is everything..
i love simple ones.. coz im simple..
i think la.. okay, this is boring.
okay whats been happenin' today for me..
- home alone
- watch tv ALL DAY
- glued to the computer ALL DAY
- it still school holiday!
- bored...
arrhh..
cant stand boredom
need to think of something to perk me up
even today's Post is boring..
posted @ 3:41 PM
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
:: Heps Bday yana ::
hey, hey.. it the 22nd ..
yana's "14th" birthday.. heh, still 14 aye'?
but, we are not celebratin' it today..
coz today not relli a free day for everyone..
sorry dear.
on to the next thing on my agenda.
later goin' out with mom to expo..
some sale heh. time to spend
ate: mee cup oni..
watched: F.R.I.E.N.D.S (haha, its like an everyday thing..)
woke up: @ 11 plus.. i noe.. i noe..
nah, coz i slept @ 4 am last nite watching that malay vcd
awrhh.. the story is fucking touching and sweeeet..
yah ok, anyway..
22.10.03
heps bday yana..
posted @ 1:53 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
:: Fuck'd up ::
yeah, yeah.. whatever hanna
u and ur 'fuck'd-up' shit !
u have no idea what has gone into you
you're just really fuck'd up with everything
hey, waittaminit..
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
..............
aite, that was kinda nice and satisfyin'..
relli needed that
just to get it off your system ..
for now at least.
ok-ok, not trynna get my fuddled self be a moment of intense herre
so, reality check for today..
1. Home ec and Malay II today.. last paper
2. i shud be "hoorayin'" but, can't..
3. i be like fuck'd up in the evenin' today
4. seems tt no one appreciates me anymore
5. im a blurry vision to everyone
6. ahh.. got knocked on my head by the cupboard.. *akkk! benjol sia
7. tripped on the side of my bed.. *akkk!! lebam sia
8. sore eyes.. *akk!! painful sia
9. headache.. *ekk!! pening sia
10. SO, enymore evidence of my 'fuck'd-up' day?
i have all the rights to be in a raging mood rite?
but hey, i DON't let it get on to others..
not like some unreasonable human being out therre that i noe
argh, whatever that is pissing me off, STOP IT
getting on to my health ready..
i cant find ANYTHING good to perk me up.
Nothing, not a shit to make me feel happy
no one cares anyway..
i seriously have no one
yah.. i dont..
not family,
not FRIENDS,
not.. love.. thats a duh~
nothing la precisely..
i have always been puttin' up a cheery face everyday,
but no one knoes the traffics thats congesting in me
so, people would think of me as..
" hey! that ho has nothing to worry 'bout? she just fine, nothing to
back her ass up. she fine.. happy, fine... "
i can't blame 'em.. i mean, it takes someone 'different' to dig it
out of me..
coz i've learnt in life, pulling a long face.. is just gonna lose yourself more
positive-thinking has never been my forte',
i guess...
im just gonna have to deal it either way.. myself..
so, i've got all myself to rely on.
not getting used to being dependant on myself
but, since this situation iz becoming like a ritual to me,
i gots to do it..
help me?
writing this and reading this is not that simple to relinquish
the fact that this ho is sufferrin' from her own shadow
she's afraid.
she's got no guts.
posted @ 11:14 PM
Monday, October 20, 2003
:: Interrogation Session ::
so, so, so...
today was 'hectic' and pretty bitchy
confrontation was held at the new foyer
topic: whu-the-fuck badmouth'd hanan?!
the story was fucking roundabout
can't be bothered to storytell..
kinda pathetic @ the same time,
but the fact that hanan got bitched for nothing she did
pissed everyone off.. "duh-"
:: Interrogation Session II ::
duration: 1 half hour
peepz: Like everyone..
from one bitch to another..
cut the crap mahn, but whuttado no one admitted
i just think its just some misleading gossips
huh, still which bitch started
yana was like turning into my mom, hah
fierce.. "Lek ah!"
ok ok.. get tis shit over with
getting me all yawning and stuff
so, tomorrow LAST paper, finali..
Home ec and Malay.. both two most BORING subj.
ok, so.. nothing more for me to bitched 'bout today
im just gonna lay back and watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S
and probably do some studying later..
or whatever
posted @ 2:38 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2003
:: Morning Madness II ::
heh, chapter II so-called :P
'cept its not morning anymore
just came back, and just felt like bloggin'
heh, kinda lame to be posting twice in a day
so.. spent the whole day religiously @ Bedok
wakaka.. yeah. then went popular to get poster colour
for tomorrow's art exam. i'm ready.
but i think i wanna do the painting one more time,
just to make sure i don freak out tomorro
why would i?
im hungry..
lets sing..
Yeah
I'm hungry
I'm starving
I want some food for my tummy
I want some
pizza coke and ice cream
popcorn cotton candy
marshmallows milkshake and peanuts
would be so great
pies chips candy apples
twinkies frosted flakes
donuts french fries
and some chocolate cake with mustard
cookies avocados pancakes
pineapple juice
whipped cream on some raw meat
that's not all i could eat
I'm hungry
I'm starving
I want some food for my tum...
I want some
honey roasted walnuts
pepperoni slices
pasta and burritos
different kinds of rices
cherries dipped in chocolate
cottage cheese and jelly
colonel sander's chicken
still won't fill my belly
broccoli sticky syrup
churros dipped in sauce
drippy sloppy joes
Then i'm full at last
ahhh ahhh
I'm full at last
Burp.
whoa! check out the cravings..
isk.. too bad hanna
it sunday nite, fat chance ya' gonna gettit
ok.
whatever
posted @ 7:22 PM
:: Morning Madness ::
just woke up, heh..
last nite slept at 3 plus i think..
i forgot to switch off my computer,
coz when i woke up..
there wez ALOT of ppl msging me in MSN..
Sorri peepz'.. im just DUMB.
'till i have the time, i'd betta be bloggin' now
'coz later won't be free, will be out
ok so.. i DID finish the ART work that i have
been procrastinating for a looong time.. heh
last minute work, works for me well
i knoe procrastination is a bad habit, but whuttaheck rite
ok so, tomorrow be art and listening com.
it so dumb to wait for like two hours in school for listening com
crappp..
ok, all i do is complain, complain...
ooohh.. the esplanade pix has FINALLY been scanned
heh, actually rite.. nothing much to write..
just reciting everything that happenened either
last nite, or going to happen..
ooo.. gots to watch "uptown girls"
@ first, i tot it was crappy, so girly-girly.. or whatever
then i saw the trailer.. kinda cool
hah, this is gettin' me all flushed up,
coz i've not yet taken a bathe..
ok so....
tata-for-now
posted @ 12:52 PM
Saturday, October 18, 2003
:: Nearly Escaping... Just a lil' bit at a time.. ::
heh.. the 'major" exams are finally overr..
yeahh.. its overrr...
so happy.. :D
ok ok! ART and MALAY not yet..
but these two not relli major to me..
coz art i can do.. no nid to memorise2..
and malay.. erh.. malay eh..
i couldnt care less.
well, been soooo... long since i blog'd
arh~ miss.. miss..
but i can still tag.. heh
so, whuts been happenin' ?
apparently, my papers are unexpectingly o-k
'cept for maths.. i be like "duh..."
and for history.. erh.. i think i wrote too much till
my hands became super-numb.. aiyeh.. everyone's hand olso..
everyone wez like complainin'.. bout the hands..
NOT the paper.
ok, i RELLI gots to be back to my art
havent been doing my prep. work during ART lesson
heh, so gots to continue..
ok, GOTS to go..
mmmuacckkss~~
posted @ 1:08 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2003
:: this is the one w/o title ::
hey, wat up. gotta make tis' snappy
got to get back to studyin'.. yah for real
been studyin' the whole weekend..
ok, been "playin'" too.. ahk
ok so, not much been happenin'..
just that i finished the remainder of the films
we took @ esplanade..
and guess how i finished it??
ehkk.. on ME..
haha.. i tried on the new clothes and my sista took the shots.
hahh.. desperate measures take for desperate actions..:P
hey hey, i am desperate to finished the film.. like so long..
and like still alot more..
so yeah, its done.. all hail to me.
hahha.. but still haf not sent for it to be developed..
no time la.. later-later i guess.. mebbe tomoro.. after school
i hate waiting for a day.. so i owaez go for the express service
pay more obviously.. but wuttaheck aite.. i hate waitin' ~
ok my break is over.
till next time.
hah.. k.k. move it!
posted @ 9:09 PM
Saturday, October 11, 2003
:: E.X.A.M fever ::
well, yesterday was el paper I/II
the outcome: paper I was like bullshitting crappy..
like we so need more time to do it
paper II however was unexpectedly "not-tough"..
it scarin' me like there's a treat to it
positive thinking mahn.
next paper is on wednesday, malay paper I & Science
oh gawd~ dumb combination on a day..
malay paper I... i SO suck @ it.
i should be studying now..
aye'! chill la!
posted @ 1:24 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
:: Thinking realistically... limited thinking ::
life with no one to hang on to you is fun hurh
i just hope it is.
ok, so.. the day is typically normal
'cept that it rained pretty hard after school.
damn rite~
i can't believe we ran all the way just to catch up the bus
but actually, it was worth the embarrassment as the bus was full
so no one relli knew it wez' us..
oh please.. no one..~
i look like shit. with the wet hair and all..hah
oh god, oh god, oh god, oh god..
Friday's EL .. how can itt be so soooon?
awrhh~ but actualli its nt so soon coz most skool has started theirs
i've not been studying much lately liek i used to..
no idea what is up wit' this hoe
ok so.. as usual, this limitless advantage walk in my life is nutting compared to last time
no happenings'.. no dramas.. just MATHS.
ok, bullshitting is over..
get ya' arse back to studies!
hit the books hanna!
posted @ 8:11 PM
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
:: Romeo & Juliet ::
Two households, both alike in dignity,
In fair Verona, where we lay our scene,
From ancient grudge break to new mutiny,
Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean.
From forth the fatal loins of these two foes
A pair of star-cross'd lovers take their life;
Whole misadventured piteous overthrows
Do with their death bury their parents' strife.
The fearful passage of their death-mark'd love,
And the continuance of their parents' rage,
Which, but their children's end, nought could remove,
Is now the two hours' traffic of our stage;
The which if you with patient ears attend,
What here shall miss, our toil shall strive to mend.
Now old desire doth in his death-bed lie,
And young affection gapes to be his heir;
That fair for which love groan'd for and would die,
With tender Juliet match'd, is now not fair.
Now Romeo is beloved and loves again,
Alike betwitched by the charm of looks,
But to his foe supposed he must complain,
And she steal love's sweet bait from fearful hooks:
Being held a foe, he may not have access
To breathe such vows as lovers use to swear;
And she as much in love, her means much less
To meet her new-beloved any where:
But passion lends them power, time means, to meet
Tempering extremities with extreme sweet.
Love me love me, say that you love me
Fool me fool me, go on and fool me
Love me love me, pretend that you love me
Leave me leave me, just say that you need me
So I cry, I pray and I beg
Love me love me, say that you love me
Leave me leave me, just say that you need me
I can't care 'bout anything but you
~addicted to this lav-lee shit~
posted @ 11:26 PM
Monday, October 06, 2003
:: QuICk SniPPeTs oF TodaY ::
ok, gotta make this snappy
gots too many assignments (whats new)
how is it that it seems that I am the onli one piled up
with assignments..
i mean, like seriously..
like wtf?! okay, so today co-incidentally i saw tha' B.I.T.C.H
dian farah mah.. wit' a different fool tis' time..
i dont now if there was any heatin' up between them but trust me
they look A-W-F-U-L!~
okay, that was a waste of space therre.. so..
like i say.. sna-ppy ahuh..
posted @ 9:01 PM
Sunday, October 05, 2003
:: SSO @ Esplanade ::
yea. that was where i was the entire day
kinda pathetic rite to watch it for an hour then go back
and the fact that we're there wit' teachers.
i mean.. c'mon, mite as well let us explore the place.
okay, so, anyway, i'm pooped!
damn pooped.
ate at KFC ALL the way @ someplace i have no idea whats it called
and Pizza Hut. yeppp.. and w're sooo full
reached home 'bout 9 plus.
took the cab home
hanan had to endure the last few minutes
fare wasn't enuff
hanan flipped!
traumatic heh
whut am i kiddin'
i don't even have the energy to type.
F.Y.I.. this is taking me more than 7 minutes.
whoa!
ok so well, let me just spit things out herre
coz i can't sleep..
OR..
mebbe i can do yana's way.
doing 100 sit ups
it worked for her.
ok, ok. let me count the fringe of my hair
but wait..
check tis out... the paint jobs.. cool huh..
i dont think thats allowed in s'pore rite? alahh standard ah.. sini kental.
posted @ 10:52 PM
Saturday, October 04, 2003
:: Secrets Beneath this bestowed and Glimmering Mask ::
never judge a bitch by its look.
commonly, true for some people.
i means it's l-ame c'mon.
exams are coming and i am still lazin ard the houz
whut is the matter wit' me nowadays ?
i kept on day-dreaming and having VERY disturbing nightmares
every single night and noon.
so many sickening and way-out-of-reality kind of dreams
not recurring ones
thank god.
something i have been avoiding happened
i am not sure whether i should be happy or not
its a mixed-up feelin'
hate this kind
ahh.. whutta-ho!
he's asked for a second chance
ok. its me feeling dizzy.
and still fucking sick.
so...
so-so shit!
went to seventeen.com..
Your score is 23 out of 36
You're a natural choice for:
Adapta-babe
You're always up for anything, and you let the situation and your mood guide you. Sure, sometimes you can be completely girly, but other times, all you want to do is run around in dirty jeans and no makeup. Your adaptability makes it easy for lots of people to feel comfortable with you, and you have lots of friends to suit all of your different interests. Keep listening to your inner voice and doing what you want to do — whether it's in a prom dress and full makeup, or your hiking boots and an old soccer T-shirt.
posted @ 11:15 AM
Friday, October 03, 2003
:: Story of an aloof and sick child (thats me) ::
Setting: in her room, whole bag of used-wet tissues, a box of panadol
music blasting,
Character: Me, Myself and the inner shit in me
With a little curl,
There once was a little girl,
Right in the middle of her forehead.
When she was good
she was very good,
but when she was bad
she was horrid!
.. It has been a long endless time since she was sick. she missed it yet..
mahn, she was flipping mad.
not the right time. certainly not.
she is not letting her sickness get on to her,
so she decided to write something.
ME
I don't need a man to make me happy,
I refuse to grow up...ever.
I am not satisfied with my life.
I don't need a lot of money,
I don't need a lot of friends.
I know what I am,
and I know what I want.
I know when to say when,
and when to give in.
I refuse to conform,
I won't be society's little girl.
No one can break me,
I won't be brought down by your opinions.
I am strong, phenomenal, and self-assured.
I am my own self.
ok.. so what-the-heck.
let me be bullshitting here rather than anywhere else right ?
so, that's it.
i'm dozing off.
can't take this temperamental sickness no more.
posted @ 2:39 PM
Thursday, October 02, 2003
:: Love Me When I'm Gone::
There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There's secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away...
Maybe I'm just blind...
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Love me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone
ReaLity check:
- felt sick
- exasperated to the core
- slept during maths
- Poz MC for 2 days
::Freekin' ASSHOLE!!::
your asshole.
What swear word are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
posted @ 8:24 PM
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
:: UnPReTTy ::
am i UnPReTTy?
am i PReTTy?
am i PaRaNOiD? YES.
okay-okay.. so that was not really me, it was just me listening to "unpretty"-TLC
well-well, another wednesday has come by.. phhhyuuu...
oh.. oh.. something shitty DID happen today
when i came back from school(bloody early :D).. ok so..
when i came back from school just now, oncee i stepped in to the house..
justa 'bout to shouta "MAAAKK..!"
she came opening the door and started to SHOUT-SHOUT @ me..
ans i woz like.. "huh?what-what shit you toking 'bout maa?"
(p.s: i didnt tok like that to her laaaa.. translation)
Apparently.. she woz shoutin' at me 'bout this starhub bill that came suddenly shittin'
bout a bill more than $700. it woz that 91471627 no.
but i stopped using it like a miiiilllioonn years ago i said (TRUE ok! im not that
stoooopid to be spending money on handphone bill. so not worth it... NAZ!)
as i had misplaced the SIM card, she tot that someone musta have used it,
an outsiderr or something.. then she say..prob its my frens whu are always coming..
i said.. "BULLSHIT mannn..!!" (p.s: again i remind... )
then all the shouting-shouting..
poppopoopooppppoo!!! ok.
the conclusion of this morality..
- i found the SIM card ! haharr
- my bill in that hp woz onli $43.85(still aloot seyy..)
- STARHUB is SHIT! (though' i AM still usin' itt...)
well-well.. thats the shit that happened today..
not much.
but there woz a moral to it.
never get STARHUB. coz they are juz.. PATHETIC!
and i am getting sleepy..
so sleepy..
sleepy..
sleep..
sleee..
sle..
zzzzzzzzz.....
posted @ 7:47 PM